I Keep My Visions to Myself

Aquarius Season Sight & the Lunar Year's New Moon

Elizabeth Elder

Thunder only happens when it’s raining.

And at times, we ignore the warning Signs in favor of good faith, the belief that some circumstance is creating an ambiguity for a situation. Even when we can FEEL that something is VERY “off”, we attempt to consider all the angles… and sometimes even pull make-believe reasons out of thin air. Our “people” would not be so bold as to disrespect or do something untoward behind our backs, right? Then thru the shocks of psychic downloads we find that something indeed really IS NOT “right” and the evidence eventually starts to surface piece-by-piece. The clues, the white lies, the discrepancies don’t add up and suddenly you’re fucking Nancy Drew on a hunt not only to know The Truth but wondering WHY. WHY would our “people” choose to lie? Why not just be transparent instead because that’s what people do when they really care about each other?

Sometimes you don’t need proof because The Signs are all there.

In the end, you’ve been struck. In reality, you received all the “light bulbs” BUT did not want to judge or “be negative” or blame until you KNEW. But you DID know, you just didn’t have all the info to feel comfortable to say so. You wanted to play it “cool” while the situation itself grew as cold as fucking ice and now you’re left freezing. And, of course, beating yourself up for ignoring The Signs naturally comes next, asking the Gods why having a good heart and trying to see the best in people ends up becoming a curse. Why was I so stupid when they were clearly being covert in their sneakiness, their ill-intended motives, their hidden agendas? If you’ve betrayed your own intuition while someone else was actively betraying you, January’s New Moon will be an intense reclamation.

If you’ve ever given someone the benefit of the doubt only to later get bitten in the ass, you’re in for an upgrade that will keep your sight sharp.

Elizabeth Elder

If someone had you believe your anxiety was at work when in fact it was your intuition, you’ve been doubly betrayed, baby.

During 2024’s Aquarius Full Moon, I was trying my best to keep believing what I was being told, trying to not overthink or over-analyze my way into an accusation. After the unfolding of what was ACTUALLY happening over many months (and I had hit nail-on-the-head in the beginning but couldn’t quite prove), the UGLY Truth was revealed… and NOT from the source but from others who witnessed what I was blamed to be paranoid about for over a year. That someone so close to me was content to conceal activities that would have helped me make an informed decision, I felt a major loss of my own autonomy, just a gullible pawn in someone’s double-life.

During the span of the deceit, I diligently worked on my patience, my faith, my improvement, my communication, my emotional regulation. I was ready to show up respectfully to resolve and repair while under an entirely false impression about what the actual problem was. To be manipulated and gas-lit only to find out The Truth much later AND HAVE SO MUCH TO PROCESS AFTER THE FACT, I was overwhelmed by defeat. We often come to the crossroads of learning The Truth while deception is far, far ahead of us. We scramble to catch up, going back to look at bypassed red-flags we were too strategically distracted to see or chose to ignore in the storm. I lamented in wonder: Is there is any way to live an open and positive life and still protect myself from Future fuckeries after experiencing betrayal trauma?

Enough deception and you become hyper-vigilant without a choice.

Doubting our intuition not only keeps us stuck in confusion but turns us into puppets for malicious masters to toy with.

I myself am an Aquarius Sun and dishonesty has always been my biggest pet peeve. Worse yet, I’m an Aquarius Sun allergic to inauthencity but have been known to begrudgingly wait for change via multiple “second chances” as a Virgo Moon and hold to sad-girl daydreams for true love to prevail as a Pisces Rising. I’m terrified that the Sister Signs of 2025’s Lunar Nodal Axis are part of my Big 3 yet know the gifts of Pisces-Virgo will carry me into better spiritual-physical health. Even when the Axis isn’t always hunky-dory (and definitely at odds with my Aqua Sun), I appreciate the “caring” core to them all. I want healthy connections based on honest exchange above everything else.

BUT as an Aquarius Sun I’m indecisive and unpredictable, my brainwaves float from topic-to-topic and I can tend to question not just myself but literally EVERYTHING. Aquarius is associated with the cerebral; intelligence is the basis to all Air Signs, sometimes to their detriment i.e. overthinking. Yes, Aquas are known to be cold at times (more-so reserved and holding our cards close) and we can ghost when overwhelmed (yet would spiral if we ever got ghosted ironically). Aquarius doesn’t have a reputation for being softies but so many forget that inside the vase is the Water (emotion) and that in our seemingly stoic stance, we’re holding HEAVY space for the Heart.

Very much a fluid vat of feelings even if we get uncomfortable showing it, us Aquariuses LOVE information and we don’t want to waste our time with fraudulent facts as they muddle the intent to get to the heart of the matter. Still recovering from the cathartic Cancer Full Moon, if we balance our logic with the intuition brought forth by the Crabby Wolf, rewards will come from the ongoing Mars Retrograde in Cancer. Furthermore, Spring’s Eclipse Season and double Mercury/Venus Retrograde will benefit from honoring inner knowing as it is 2025’s literal FOUNDATION: a 9-year of the Hermit, the Pisces North Node-Virgo South Node and the Animal Zodiac ALL represent the immense power of extrasensory perception.

The Lunar New Year / Aquarius New Moon is a monumental manifestation moment to honor our intuition.

On the Lunar New Year, the mystical creature’d Wood Dragon gives way to the Wood Snake who is no less mythological.

Dragon is a highly coveted Sign whose wide array of movement is both epic AND extra, resulting in unpredictable jolts of wild news last year. Mysterious yet wise, a Snake Year is transformative though savors in the secretive rather than large brush strokes of surprises. Snake’s similarity to Scorpio honors a private side and slithers into the spirit realm. As Snake is a bit introverted, this Animal aligns beautifully with the Year of the Hermit. Though Snake typically winds low to the ground, Heart to the Earth, the element of Wood find this reptile style more cunning. Wood Snake can climb, Wood Snake can see to the horizon. Traditions differ region to region but ancestral honor and tokens of good luck are always present for the Lunar New Year.

Illumination in the wintry Lunar New Moon are not only symbols of hope in the Dark and a lore of chasing demons away but a sharpening of our sight.

The tree in the Garden of Eden where the serpent-snake was said to be the Devil wrapped its limbs in the branches and offered Eve the Forbidden Fruit… it’s always been baffling to me that the Original Sin was simply WANTING TO KNOW. Though its consumption brought the Evil with the Good, the Forbidden Fruit allowed Adam and Eve a freedom that God did not want them to have: the ability to think for themselves, effectually allowing humans to disobey God. And God continuously exercised his power OVER his people through punishment, always their master. An over-simplified cliff notes perspective, nothing to do with the Chinese Animal Zodiac, yet the Wood Snake and the Serpent to some degree symbolize this “knowing”. Knowledge is autonomy in itself. And many institutions and individuals DO NOT want us to KNOW so we remain under their thumb for personal gain.

The Lunar New Year always begins on the first New Moon of the lunisolar calendar.

WHAT: Aquarius New Moon

WHEN: Wednesday January 29th, 2025 7:35 AM EST

THEME: Get Out of Your Head, Listen to Your Gut

In 2024, I gave the benefit of the doubt to only have my life severely turned upside down. I even wrote about the idea of having faith and not passing judgement. I believed that I was the problem (as I was told) and though we all contribute to interpersonal issues to a degree (even by failing to advocate for ourselves and allowing behavior to continue). The Truth was hidden while the ick was pinned on me while disingenuous propositions that never were intended to become a reality were dangled over me. There was an entire side-plot motivation in the picture the entire time, even though I was told that the 3rd party was never the problem in the first place. It was supposedly just all in my head despite all the shit that didn’t add up.

It’s true that some people lie because they fear consequences, reactions, “looking bad”, etc. but as a person who believes in the full autonomy of others (and not just the ability to move secretly however one wants behind other peoples’ backs), it is actually quite a BURDEN to hold onto information or hard feelings just to avoid confrontation. This is not only about simple integrity and respect to others but basic maturity. Ironically, a “professional” kept pushing the idea that this individual with whom I was extremely close to had “the right” to extreme secrecy. Even the definition of “lying” was suddenly up for debate, while the rest of the world seemed to have a clear idea. And somehow I bought it, open-minded silly me.

Lying is a control method and typically it’s NOT that people lie to save hurt feelings but because the Truth would allow you to make choices that do not serve their interests. I’ve had compassion for people who sugar-coat and minimize and skirt the Truth and I’ve over-thought through the source of their silence, their people-pleasing, their fear, but at the end of the day, I’m not here to hand-hold someone who would willingly disallow me the autonomy to make my own decisions about my involvement with them. That’s abuse, plain and simple, no matter their own wounds or worries or even the fact that they may be lying to themselves about their own lying.

There is a way to tap back into intuition even if you’re a massive over-thinker and chronic over-forgiver.