Those who think perfection is achievable are delulu. Those who want to obtain it are demonic. Girl, bye. Get out of here with that nonsensical brainwash’d bullshit.
Behind the idolatry of hyper “blessed with success” icons is a backdrop of hard-labor from others and/or the greedy deeds of generational wealth. Being born with a silver spoon in the mouth or gaining access to funds by climbing an industry ladder often guarantees a “buy” thru to popularity (though sometimes the public sees thru this ahem Katy Perry). Remove behind-the-scenes sweat and an entire ocean would swallow these powerhouses alive. It only takes a split-second for the cracks in the facade to show when the system taken for granted moves elsewhere.
Money, support and access to opportunities travels MUCH further than intentional effort and time management that ~YES~ must be practiced to achieve success… let that sink in before you lash out. It’s the somewhat Saturnian way of the wicked World. I know effort and time are incredibly valuable especially as a perpetual Girl Scout Earth Moon with a Capricorn Venus who consistently offers my resources without so much as a thank you from others (salty much? lol maybe). I’d never dream of dissuading anyone from following a dream tho I do think dreams based in capitalistic excess have infiltrated the spiritual girly sphere to unethical levels *VERY GROSS*.
With Jupiter in Cancer, the ideal is to have everyone taken care of and that does include taking care of ourselves so we can show up for others; this is the way of the Cancer-Capricorn Axis in all its parental Cardinal core values. I’ve been honing in on gratitude while still holding space for the clear-cut tragedy that is happening in the World. Centering in my body, counting my blessing for what I have ~especially each time the PMS boo-hoo over lacks of shiny exterior without substance occasionally pop up~ has been an anchor in an intersection of wants and needs that often contradict each other. I do not want anyone I love for a second to beat themselves up if they feel they haven’t “gotten” to where they want to be in life. And I get it. I’m an ex-alcoholic who “wasted time” in shitty situationships, not “strategizing” how to monetize my creative pursuits or pursue a career that I hated.
When that stigmating voice in my head starts to disapprove, I think of how I’d react if it were towards to any person I love and I tell it to shut the fuck up.
Last year someone I was close to casually proclaimed they could complete a plan in an hour and it made feel absolutely and entirely incompetent. It took me WAY LONGER to complete this set of tasks plus there were extras I alone had to coordinate that I feel were overlooked and maybe undervalued. My percolation of ideas and communicative check-ins reflected my value system; I’m a proactive planner because I tend to procrastinate or put too many things on my plate (more on this for the Saturn Retrograde guide). Was my need for a back-up plan and promo advance annoying? Was I too thorough, too many steps ahead too soon, too intentional with my assurances to others involved? By 2024’s Capricorn Season, the underbelly was seen in an unleash of critiques (or insults perhaps) that even in non-exampled volumes loudly shouted how unfavorable my non-medicated AuDHD coping strategies were. I apparently did a poor job with no contributions and also had no right to be proud of how hard I had worked or all the BTS efforts I spent hours on.
I felt so much shame, second-guessing not just my skills but my whole value as a person.
Was I awkward in social situations? Was I not persuasive enough in partnerships? Was I not sharp in my copy? Clearly I was an embarrassment and an annoyance to this person who dumped all this info at once on some trigger and arrived in my inbox with devastating dismissal. Why was this not mentioned before? (Did I mention these efforts were unpaid? LOL) When we’re busting ass at our day jobs and fitting in time for our creative pursuits, further community-efforts, trying our hardest to contribute and create spaces for expression, unconstructive criticisms feels designed to destroy. Skipping from “no issue getting it done” to “you’re a nightmare to work with” held much to read in between the lines. I literally wanted to give up doing what I loved and what I had put so much time and energy into.
Society generally ignores the barriers for those who are neurodivergent, financially insecure, disabled in any way and/or come from a background or lineage of oppression. At some point we need to know how to appreciate the spectrum of uniqueness and, yes, struggles each person is working with (and some actively trying to work thru) instead of belittling them which will never create an improvement or progress. People who don’t care to understand or who we mirror something in themselves they’ve tried hard to suppress may react with stronger push-back. And the end of the day, WE KNOW THAT people are not built the same: our different paces and preferences do not make us worse than or better than any another person. Where my recent experiences barely scratch the surface of the detriment any of the above can have on one’s mental health, that shit HURTS deeply. Self-worth can be so precarious and its easy to compare oneself to others.
It is incredibly damaging when blunt insults about perceived shortcomings come from someone you trust ~especially a parent who is an early childhood provider of safety~ and/or someone you believe to have an understanding relationship with. Subconsciously, I believe this reaction to others is cyclical and that the micro learns from the macro: the system is set up to reward the already productive, wealthy, typical achiever and those who “slow” things down or have too many needs are undesirable. In a flash, the charmers skip ahead in line and secure the bag like it was nothing (there’s a reason DEI initiatives existed in the first place and a reason Trump wanted to get rid of them). Subconsciously many of us have allowed society to determine our value. Productivity is always placed over well-being.
On a personal level, having self-awareness around conditioned programming helps us unpack why we desire achieving roles or traits that a sick pantheon assigns as “ideal”. And rarely what we think we want is the full truth. Our core being responds to different surface-level representations or even incited emotions from an energy output that can indicate a deeper type of self-actualization we’re seeking. Underneath layers of experience or even that of hardships is often a hope to experience safety, belonging, spirituality.
When we’ve suppressed ourselves in order receive resources we need or even want (love for example tho I would argue we all need love), we are in a sense being manipulated to act in a specific way to receive reward. No blame or shame here - weighing the masks we wear against the reality check of survival is one of the greatest Saturnian sore-spots we will all inevitably experience at some point in life sadly. And in the current state of the world, macro or micro, hoarding resources or controlling a narrative usually comes from a place of lack within someone. The projection onto those around them is often a wound that’s been justified so that they can maintain their own sense of safety in a precariously balanced life.
Scarcity mindset isn’t totally unrealistic in this world and it’s only going to grow more hungry with time. The Trump administration in office exists based on this scarcity mindset alone. With Jupiter in Cancer, however, there are other ways to navigate making a better World. Sharing is absolutely caring, mutual respect for communities and extending resources to those in need is as valid of a survival method as building walls, stockpiling stuff and so on (and all of this transfers over into the social and interpersonal comparison challenge we deal with as microaggressions in our day to day. There is no magickal combination of what we can afford to lose; that risk assessment and decision is always up to you but getting clear with our value systems and acting accordingly is the way of the Cardinal Signs.
The Capricorn Buck Moon supports the sacredness of being ourselves in full while considering others: we all have gifts and contributions and are worthy whether we’re brave enough to be seen or remain to stay secret.
WHAT: Capricorn Full Buck Moon
WHEN: Thursday July 10th, 2025 4:36 PM EST
THEME: To Be Or Not To Be That Bitch
With the soon Capricorn Full Moon, deconstructing the system that sells perfectionism to society at large, pushed immensely in recent years by Instagram influencers and the shame we have for not mirroring, will be in ache of uprooting altogether. Serving false gods of validation by sacrificing true selves, making ourselves digestible to a material-driven made-up world of games, control and fake prizes, is exhausting. Being pointed at for being too weird, whimsical, uptight, loud, opinionated, this, that or the other is also exhausting. “Making ourselves small” can be more than keeping quiet and/or looking the other way… it can take forms of expended effort, convincing others of your value, and all kinds of people-pleasing gymnastics.
Did you know that YOU assign your own value? Your self-worth is an extension of your own personal values… to a degree. There is theory and there is practice, which is the entire theme of the Saturn-Neptune Conjunction and Neptune Retrograde that lurks around in the background (more on that later). While people can deny resources due to their own views on who is “deserving”, what you receive or do not receive (including treatment) will never be the core decider on your worth as a person. Manufactured low self-esteem is literally designed to sell products, the slick marketing and manipulation of capitalism that makes us believe we will “glow up” with the right products.
Can’t we just be good enough as we are? Who are we performing for anyway?
The hierarchy has long been asserting a steady stream of narcissistic supply to survive. They want to keep us in awe of power, constantly vying to serve, an unconscious role we are either bullied or demeaned into accepting. Ironically that which distracts us and yet causes self-esteem damage in comparison is a marketing scheme we buy into and pine after. Even when we see thru the bullshit, the sleek seduction of it all taunts us. The effortless poise of importance by icons in the public eye has always been and always will be an unethical standard most people can not live up to.
As we’ve crossed the Summer Solstice in the thick of Cancer Season, the Capricorn Full Moon wants us to banish what we can no longer drag into the second half the year. That might be a mountain too heavy to carry… or a mountain made out of a molehill via the insistence of certain situations being set-backs, pleasing certain people who you COULD make boundaries with or have hard conversations with. Of course we all have subjective stickiness where we are stuck between a rock and a hard place… this is the understanding I have extended to my friend… there is something deeper happening AND there are ways I can show up better.
Regardless, the Buck Moon will urge us to kick aside or work at what we discern is necessary to stay attached to. Obviously it’s not as simple as a chanting “baggage be gone!” and only you can decide what is mind over matter. While the Buck Moon may illuminate the urge to engage in harsh cut-offs or dwell in heartfelt ruminations all the while consequences will creep into our consciousness for many months ahead if we don’t utilize a calm in conflict or paranoias about weapons formed against you included! On the topic of the Cancer-Cap Axis re: generosity, ancestry, preservation, protection and tending to the emotional growth - all subjects are predicted passions for this year-long partnership of Jupiter in Cancer which newly entered the sign in June (full guide to recent Outer Planet movements here).
Self-Concepts of the Capricorn Full Moon:
Some Astrologers will say the Moon is in “detriment” in Capricorn. I highly disagree. Because Saturn-ruled Capricorn is “opposite” Moon-ruled Cancer and a Capricorn Full Moon will be opposite the Cancer Sun, the idea that the Sea-goat is less happy with emotional ocean-tiding Luna ties to cliches that Capricorn is allergic to emotions. I eye-roll at this. An optimized Capricorn is benevolent with a deeply devoted responsibility to “whole self”. Anyone who has read my Museletters for a while knows I don’t view Axis-es “against” one another; they ARE a polarity to a degree but tend to create mind-expansive AND complimentary conversations. If anything, a Capricorn Moon is given softer edges around its traditional traits thanks to its relationship with maternal Cancer. Capricorn’s determination and duty shine light on the painful parts of ourselves we’ve ignored and says “hey, it’s time we heal this” while being further coaxed by Cancer Sun’s care and comfort.
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